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The viel
The viel
I need to officially sign out until September 15th, my official release from school- assuming I pass all of my classes. So, this will be my last blog until that time. But my mind has been teeming with thoughts and insights lately, and I just had to get one more entry in.
Yesterday morning I returned from Katie's wedding. It was a fast and furious trip yet very emotional for me; and I didn't expect that. I only got in to Utah the day before the wedding and there was a lot yet to be done. I stayed up making last minute changes to a few bridesmaid dresses and making Katie's veil. On my mind was all the homework I should be doing and the dread of how behind I was falling. Katie and I slept in the same room, as we have been doing for the last month in California (SORT OF), and lights didn't go out 'til after 3am. When I woke up I immediately began steaming Katie's wedding dress and ironing her clothes and packing up her things. She was jumping over me packing her suitcase for her honeymoon and putting on her make-up. My dad kept yelling up the stairs that they needed to leave and she was going to be late. We hurried and hugged to say good-bye and I put out my fist for a pound saying, "Next time I see you, you're going to be married!" Wrong words! We both started crying... then hugging... then Mom joined in the tearful hugging circle. And then she was gone.
Anyone who knows me knows Katie and I have a roller coaster kind of relationship. There is a funny quote (by Linda Sunshine) that I think illustrates it well:
"If you don't understand how a woman could both love her sister dearly and want to wring her neck at the same time, then you were probably an only child."
It's true. In spite of how upset I can feel towards her on occasion, she is my sister and my best friend. I'm sooo happy to see her so happy, moving forward with confidence and security. Hugging her good-bye that morning was like closing the book on a very personal and intimate volume of my life. My companion through the young single adulthood years we had been braving together for so long was moving on. I was loosing my buddy. And I didn't expect to feel that sting. I hadn't even thought about it. But at that moment of saying good-bye, the full force of that reality bore down on me. So, it took a lot of work putting make-up on my wet eyes. It was a little painful thinking how I should have been at the temple if I would have gone through earlier that month (as I had been planning for some time). But there was a lot to do to make everything pull together for the wedding dinner that night, so I set aside the sad and raced to pick-up her flowers at the florist in Orem and then on to the Draper temple for cheering and pictures. Katie looked absolutely beautiful when she walked out of the temple holding Dave's hand. I hardly expect to look as she did on my wedding day. The night progressed through dinner, speeches, and dancing. And through it all I had really great feelings. That experience seemed to wake me up to things that I have hoped for and that are ahead for me. There is a lot of change that is occurring and coming around the bend for me. And things are beginning to feel like a window in heaven has opened and blessings are starting to shower me.
I'm so grateful I made the sacrifice to be at her wedding. I won't ever forget the feelings and thoughts I had that day and how beautiful Katie looked. I can't wait to post again in 17 days! Until then, I'm signing off.
I'm so grateful I made the sacrifice to be at her wedding. I won't ever forget the feelings and thoughts I had that day and how beautiful Katie looked. I can't wait to post again in 17 days! Until then, I'm signing off.
1 comment:
Oh, I'm so sad to have missed it all. Travis couldn't (still can't) stop talking about the wedding. You'd think he'd never been to a wedding before. Well, at least not one like this one! I love that quote about sisters, and I KNOW. Boy do I ever know.
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