Progress Report

This isn't going to be a long blog. I just wanted to note that I've noticed a change in me... small yet discernible; it's comparable to finding the first bright green blades of grass among melting snow in the spring. (I apologize for all my analogies. I'm not trying to be "profound" or smart I just think in images more so than in words.) I've obviously started blogging more and even though I have so much to do, I stopped and played the piano for a while tonight. I'm returning to my old me and it's comforting. I've felt dead for a long time. I haven't enjoyed things I used to enjoy or hoped for things I used to hope for and I'm not sure why I'm awakening. Whatever the reason, it's a very rejuvenating feeling. I've considered the following reasons for this change:

-Looking forward to finally finishing a lifetime goal of graduating from FIDM in fashion design. This has always been the bigger goal (far ahead of BYU).
-Seeing my sister Katie move on with marriage (a personal triumph for myself because she's my sister and I've suffered through the pains of young single adulthood with her).
-Exercising my creative talents so much lately. Tonight Katie and I met up with a fellow designer friend of mine (thanks Desiree!) to collaborate on her viel. I know viels don't seem like a big deal and they aren't really that hard but hers is going to be unique and sooooo beautiful. Beyond that, I just finished a suit jacket that took me all week to sew. And I guess hard work always makes you feel good.
-I've been taken care of and shown a lot of compassion and love this week. I'm so prideful in accepting help sometimes but when someone just puts their foot down and helps me it's awesome!

Isn't it funny how one day I'm blogging about a melt-down and a few days later I'm easy breezy. Please refrain from acknowledging how crazy you all may find me. I write it off as being emotionally honest. Krista says she hides in closets occasionally and Katie skips out on work. So, I'm not so far behind. ... I don't think.