It's Over

Well, the illness is over. And what does my doctor think it was caused by? My running. It's sure ironic that I always claim running as my recreational sport of choice because I can afford it. But since training for this marathon and then recovering from it, the cost has been great. I've missed a total of 8 days of work and that is a lot in opportunity cost. Plus the medical bills I've incurred. (My insurance is not effective for two more weeks.) I know that kidney stones are a common ailment, and really aren't a horrible disease, but this experience pressed on me a few things.

On my final drive to the ER, in the worst agony I've ever felt, I remember having the thought, Christ has felt this and more. It seemed impossible that anyone could endure more agony than I was in and for a longer time than I did. I know it's impossible to comprehend Gethsemane, but I have been made more humble and more grateful for Christ because of the suffering- as small as it was- that I felt.

On my way driving to the BYU game today, a man came on the radio inviting everyone to a benefit dinner on behalf of his sister, a single mother of one, who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and has been unable to work for three months. My eyes filled up with tears thinking about her. It was completely miserable and stressful not being able to work for just one week, and I only have myself to take care of. I hated calling in and explaining what my status was. I hated depending on people to drive me places because I couldn't while I was on pain killers. I hated trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I hated breaking social engagements because I didn't feel well. I can't imagine living like that. I can't imagine living while waiting to die like that. So, I guess being sick endowed me with greater empathy.

I also was really impressed by my friends and their concern for me. I hid from my roommates a lot because I don't like crying in front of people. But I received so many texts from guys offering to give me a blessing or do anything for me. It reminded me how impressive the guys around me are. I don't think I realize it often enough.

Alright, I'm off to a movie. I think I'm done posting about me and my kidney stones.