Neal A. Maxwell

"Within the swirling global events- events from which we are not totally immune- is humanity's real and continuting struggle: whether or not, amid the cares of the world, we really choose, in the words of the Lord, to "care for the life of the soul." Whatever our anxious involvements with outward events, this inner struggle proceeds in both tranquil and turbulent times. Whether understood or recognized, this is the unchanging moral agendum from generation to generation."


Saturday, September 12, 2009

...whoa, Nelly.

It's Saturday morning and I'm getting ready to head off to LA for my last day of studio work as a FIDM student. I can't believe these two years have already flown by. This whole quarter I've felt a little emotional about it. FIDM was a lifelong dream. But the events of the past few days have caused me to "let go" and look forward.

I'm actually at my friend's house, Mitra. I slept over last night because of a very dramatic event that took place yesterday night (3:08am... I have the phone record) that involved me waking up to sounds of someone in the other room (alarming because Christy was in Utah for Katie's open house), me jumping out my bedroom window, blood curdling screams as I saw a figure depart my house, and an hour of crying my eyes out, shaking like a leaf, and minimal dry heaving that followed. I'm okay now, though. I just won't go back to the house alone. I was exhausted yesterday and in a bit of shock from everything that went down. I don't remember ever feeling that kind of terror before. And I don't think I'll be able to stay in a home by myself for a long while. I didn't tell my mom or Christy about it because I didn't want them to worry. Especially considering what my mom went though the night before.

Thursday morning (3:30 a.m. ish) my dad took my mom to the ER because she woke up with intense chest pain. They gave her nitro and did some tests on her to find out the problem and scheduled her for an angiogram for next Thursday. However, this morning at 5:30 Utah time, my mom woke up with a numb left side and more pain. Her arm had hurt yesterday but she took asprin and it went away. I woke up to my buzzing phone with Katie on the other end letting me know that my mom had just been wisked off to the hospital in an ambulance. Mitra heard me answer the phone and came in to see if I was okay. I think I'm just in shock. My mom doesn't weigh more than 115 pounds and hasn't had a day of health problems in her life. She's getting an angiogram today and then they'll know what will be done after that point. I considered flying to Utah today and coming back on Tuesday to turn in my portfolio and give my final presentation, but decided against it. Mom said to wait. I guess I'll go to Utah on Wednesday. Since I don't have school, it shouldn't be a problem.
I'm relieved I have friends that have been supportive of me. My friend at work, Merrilees, offered to have me stay at her house for the weekend (having heard from Angela what had happened). And Vilate offered to have me stay at her house. I counted the options and was comforted to find quite a few. So happy to have girlfriends. As I've expressed before, it's harder to make really close girlfriends when you're older because at this stage, everyone has "a life" and there isn't a whole lot of opportunity to form really close friendships with people other than guys (compliments of dating). So, cool. I have made friends in the two years I have been here. With that, I'm off to school

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