(CAUTION: This is not to be read by those who are easily grossed out.)
When I moved to California last September, it had been eons since last vomiting. Seriously, the last thing I had thrown up was a tuna fish sandwich in elementary school. It took me years to eat tuna again.
Yesterday, I threw up for my second time in less than a year. Both times, it has been toward the end of a 24-hour fast. In both cases, I woke up the morning of feeling unusually weak, had a hard time standing up to shower, and breathing was a little more laborious. The first time it happened, I barfed before church and so I didn't go. This time I did make it to church, but not through it... just the first twenty minutes of sacrament meeting. I was trying to think "sacrament appropriate" thoughts but became completely fixated on keeping myself from throwing up. I was thinking to myself the whole time, "You're okay. Relax. Don't throw up. You're okay. This will pass. You'll feel better in a few minutes." Then began the foreboding pre-vomit hiccups/burps. As soon as the priesthood was excused to join the congregation I launched from the bench. I almost made it to my car but lost it in the parking lot. It was so painful and acidic.
This boggles my mind. Why would not having anything in my stomach cause my body to reject what was in there. I turned to google. Google said that fasting causes the body to release toxins: "When waste is released too quickly by the lymph glands some of the toxic overload is taken by the liver and secreted with bile into the stomach." Nausea happens because the bile is not diluted and can't flush from the sytem." But I still don't really get why sometimes I can fast and other times I throw-up. How can I avoid it?
3 comments:
Uhhhh.... NOT fasting! Clearly that is the best solution here! Seriously, it is not advisable for those for whom it is medically impractical... like those who are pregnant/nursing or sick! (or if it makes you sick.) Brooklyn is eating real food now and not nursing as much, yet I still don't fast! Do not feel guilty. You could do a shorter fast, or like I (try to) fast all sweets/sugar/chocolate when I'm nursing (sadly, even that is extremely hard). The poor will still get the blessings and trust me, you have made a sufficient sacrifice! I hate to see my Charlotte in pain!
Time for a science experiment! What is it that you're eating beforehand? Are you feeling nauseous everytime you fast? Is this a biased sample and it just so happened that fasting happened to occur at just the right moment to coincide with your vomit episodes? Are you eating sufficiently before fasting? etc. You've probably considered those questions, but those answers should help you figure out if you should fast or not.
It's definately not what I'm eating beforehand. It is a very distinct sickness that only accompanies fasting. I wonder if I'm not eating enough the day before I fast. Anywho, I'm sure I'll try fasting more before I give up on it.
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